Mam, I have been so frightened these past 2 months, I have worse lungs than you, and that was saying something. Looks like I will be joining you sooner than expected. Mum, I hope you have met Lee and given him a right leaving me the way he did. I hope you have met my Lola-lou, you will love her CKCS. Mum I hope you have met up with Darren Murph, and he is back with his mam and dad, Stephen is in a bad way after his death so young, give him a smacker on the cheek from me plz. Denika is a different girl, she is my little girl and I love her and the boys so much. Dahrhion is still Dahrhion we have our ups and downs, but he is a smashing young man. Since my diagnosis, both Denika Dahrhion Liam, have been beside themselves, they are both worried sick, Tyla and Jaxon know that I'm going to get really ill, dnt know when though as it could be 1-3yrs, 3-5 years or 5-10 years, then hopefully a lung transplant, I always thought I would live a grand old 1 like Nanna and Gramp, both in theor 80s. Well, I've given up the cigs again, so hopefully that will give me a couple of more years, I have promised Denika, Dahrhion, Mark, Gregg, and Liam that I will fight to stay with them. Mark said he won't be long behind him, but I convinced him to stay as Dahrhion will need him. So yep cigs are gone eating a bit better, but I'm waiting in limbo atm, as I have to have more CT's to see how fast it is progressing, hopefully slow, there are loads of Black holes in my lungs along with loads of white stringy lines all over my lungs. Anyway I miss you terribly 16ys wow it has gone so fast it feels like yesterday. Love you unconditional and keep an eye on Nika and Dahrhion, pick them up when they are feeling down. Love always Lorna xxx ❤️