dont know whats going on in my head right now but i know ur here an i know ur telling me to do what i feel cause lessons are there to be learned, u always said them words to me as i was growing up and that if i made a mistake u wud be there to help me learn my lesson well im gonna do the exact thing, im happy and content liam is happy and as long as he is then i can relax... missing u gets harder every day but i look to my heart and thats where you'll be. my love for you is just as strong if not stronger today than it was back then cause uve taught me so much in life and even back then when u thought i wasnt listening, i was i was takeing it in and now i still hear u saying the things u used to but u thought i wasnt listening.. i miss u nan and i love u with every breath i take i still hurt knowing u aint here to put ur arms around me an look at me know im not right but im stronger every day and i fight my battle with u still in my mind and heart,.. just want to say were all ok and still thinking about u where ever you are.. please give dad a big kiss from me and tell him i love him so so much give gareth a hug frm me too an tell him hes on my mind always, love you all and miss u all soo sooo much bye for now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx