10 frikking years 💔 god nan I can't begin to explain the pain you left inside me. some days I can't breathe it hurts so much. it's like my heart breaks over and over. I can't feel earth I can't feel anything but that pain soreing through my body. this year has been harder than ever. I question how I done a decade with out you. I question WHY this happened to me 💔 why this happened to us.. you promised me 10 years ago that you would make it another 10 years and now we are here I can't comprehend them words. I'm truly broken 💔 you would be so proud of Liam nan he's in comp now and doing absolutely amazing. in so proud of him and I know you would too 💜 Tyla and jaxon are amazing nan you would love them. they are so funny and wicked. I have been smelling you in the house.. timeless.... so strong in my hallway. although I never smelt it this last few days just over Xmas when I was alone. almost like you were there telling me it's ok I'm here 💜 anyway enough babbling the tears won't stop lol xx xx that means laughing out loud btw haha I love you always and forever xxxxxxxxxxxx me and the boys xxxxxxxxxx